Recently I was diagnosed with OCD after a solid year of battling extremely distracting and aggressive, violent, gory thoughts about the death of myself and my loved ones, in some cases I would think about myself hurting them. I loved to think about falling down the stairs, jumping off a bridge, falling or impaling objects, and my personal favorite, car accidents. Eventually I could no longer drive because I became fearful that all these thoughts … The Story Continues…
My ocd started when I was about eight. I am now 21 and still have not fully recovered. I have kind of a different kind of OCD, or so I think. I haven’t viewed many stories like mine. I get overwhelmed with worry and anxiety that my mom or dad are going to die when I’m not with them. Such as at work, or a friends, or my boyfriends house for the weekend. I perform … The Story Continues…
My obsession is so difficult to describe. My brain sees the obsession as a logical solution to a problem that it imagines. If i say a certain phrase, touch certain objects, do certain things that in the past has maybe preceded a negative event, my brain tells me i have to fix what i have just done/said or another negative event will occur. Its one of those screwed if you do screwed if you don’t … The Story Continues…