Incertus

A man whose mind feels that it is captive would prefer to blind himself to the fact. But if he hates falsehood, he will not do so; and in that case he will have to suffer a lot. He will beat his head against the wall until he faints. He will come to again and look with terror at the wall, until one day he begins afresh to beat his head against it; and once … Read The Rest >>

Fact I know; and Law I know; but what is this Necessity, save an empty shadow of my own mind’s throwing?
Thomas Henry Huxley (1825– 95), English biologist.

OCD, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
Page 1 of 2

I know my hands are clean. I know that I have touched nothing dangerous. But… I doubt my perception.

Soon, if I do not wash, a mind numbing, searing anxiety will cripple me. A feeling of stickiness will begin to spread from the point of … Read The Rest >>

Fact I know; and Law I know; but what is this Necessity, save an empty shadow of my own mind’s throwing?
Thomas Henry Huxley (1825–95), English biologist.
Part 2

Though under-employed, I was able to hold a job and eventually remarried and adjusted to not being able to do most of the things I wanted. So life continued until my drinking became more problematic than the reasons I was drinking.

Then I got sober.

When I did, everything fell apart. … Read The Rest >>

And where two raging fires meet together,
They do consume the thing that feeds their fury.
William Shakespeare

Dual Diagnosis

I’m not a psychiatrist,
or a therapist or even a social worker.
I’m just another recovering person who is striving to stay clean and sober today while managing a mental illness.
In that daily journey, I seek to protect and expand what serenity I have been able to achieve. . . . . . . . . . . . . … Read The Rest >>

Abstinence is as easy to me as temperance would be difficult
Samuel Johnson (1709-1784)English Author

Addiction and Recovery and OCD

Most of us
are about as eager to be changed
as we were to be born,
and go through our changes in a similar state of shock.
James Baldwin (1924 – 87), U.S. author.

I am recovering from addiction, or alcoholism if you prefer ( alcohol being just the last of a long line of drugs I used), on the 12 step … Read The Rest >>