Comments on: Lucy’s Story http://www.incertus.imntb.com/2008/08/20/lucys-story/ The Weblog of Doubt and Other Disorders - Living With OCD Sat, 31 Jul 2010 11:27:51 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.2.2 By: Haley http://www.incertus.imntb.com/2008/08/20/lucys-story/#comment-8320 Haley Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:12:28 +0000 http://www.incertus.imntb.com/2008/08/20/lucys-story/#comment-8320 I am so greatful to hear im not the only one suffering from ocd, I think it started when i was about fifteen although i was totally unaware at the time what i was suffering from was ocd, but i always thought i had some life threatening illness for example i started out having chest pains so i automatically thought i was having a heart attack and it ended up being acid reflux and when my grandmother passed away of cancer i always thought i had cancer if my head hurt i had a brain tumor this one still haunts me sometime and i remember one time i was having pains in my knee and i thought i had bone cancer and that lasted for over two months and all i really did was lay in bed think about how awful it was going to be to die from cancer so young and why was it happening to me. Then it kind of subsided then when i was about 21 now 24 i was working as a phlebotomist and having to stick people i knew had hiv or hep gave me extreme anxiety for about a year i had this horrible thought that i was hiv positive and was going to give it to my son and husband and that lasted about a year until i got pregnant with my second son and had an hiv test as i was scared to get one until then, i also wash my hands quite often and i have rituals i have to do in the shower so it takes me like 30 to 45 mins just to take a shower and then when my second son was born only 10 weeks ago my ocd flared up big time only this time it was intrusive unwanted thoughts about harming my kids it makes me sick to even talk about it, it is getting better over time but i still have them and i have bizzare thoughts all the time they come out of nowhere like what if there is a dead body in the dumpster and i will try to avoid having to go take the trash out. It is very time consuming and i hate it i take klonopin and zoloft but the first time i took zoloft it made my anxiety ten times worse so i try to avoid taking it. Anyways sorry so long just had to vent and im so glad im not the only one out there. I am so greatful to hear im not the only one suffering from ocd, I think it started when i was about fifteen although i was totally unaware at the time what i was suffering from was ocd, but i always thought i had some life threatening illness for example i started out having chest pains so i automatically thought i was having a heart attack and it ended up being acid reflux and when my grandmother passed away of cancer i always thought i had cancer if my head hurt i had a brain tumor this one still haunts me sometime and i remember one time i was having pains in my knee and i thought i had bone cancer and that lasted for over two months and all i really did was lay in bed think about how awful it was going to be to die from cancer so young and why was it happening to me. Then it kind of subsided then when i was about 21 now 24 i was working as a phlebotomist and having to stick people i knew had hiv or hep gave me extreme anxiety for about a year i had this horrible thought that i was hiv positive and was going to give it to my son and husband and that lasted about a year until i got pregnant with my second son and had an hiv test as i was scared to get one until then, i also wash my hands quite often and i have rituals i have to do in the shower so it takes me like 30 to 45 mins just to take a shower and then when my second son was born only 10 weeks ago my ocd flared up big time only this time it was intrusive unwanted thoughts about harming my kids it makes me sick to even talk about it, it is getting better over time but i still have them and i have bizzare thoughts all the time they come out of nowhere like what if there is a dead body in the dumpster and i will try to avoid having to go take the trash out. It is very time consuming and i hate it i take klonopin and zoloft but the first time i took zoloft it made my anxiety ten times worse so i try to avoid taking it. Anyways sorry so long just had to vent and im so glad im not the only one out there.

]]> By: Mel http://www.incertus.imntb.com/2008/08/20/lucys-story/#comment-8311 Mel Tue, 09 Sep 2008 01:36:35 +0000 http://www.incertus.imntb.com/2008/08/20/lucys-story/#comment-8311 hey i can totaly relate to being frustrated with hearing people talk about maybe having OCD... "The worst part of having OCD is hearing people say they think they have it. This part really hurts me because they don’t understand the real anguish that came from my obsessive thoughts." I think if people really have OCD and know the pain and time that it takes from everyday life they wouldnt talk about it so freely as if having OCD is some kind of novelty. I have been reading a few posts and really appreciate how people can share thier stories and im really glad that websites like these are in place, thankyou for your post it helps to know i am not alone with this destructive doubting disorder. hey

i can totaly relate to being frustrated with hearing people talk about maybe having OCD…
“The worst part of having OCD is hearing people say they think they have it. This part really hurts me because they don’t understand the real anguish that came from my obsessive thoughts.”
I think if people really have OCD and know the pain and time that it takes from everyday life they wouldnt talk about it so freely as if having OCD is some kind of novelty. I have been reading a few posts and really appreciate how people can share thier stories and im really glad that websites like these are in place, thankyou for your post it helps to know i am not alone with this destructive doubting disorder.

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