It’s now the following year, I have moved to another country with my partner, so now we are alone and starting out again. It was a major relief to get away from the house I was living in before, which had just turned into a nightmare for me. I really hope I can leave any fears behind, but I never want to go back to that place again where I spent such dark months. We are invited to a party there next weekend and I really am trying to avoid going, as I fear it will trigger off all sorts of anguish to have all those reminders of that awful time around me, where I didn’t know what was real and what to think. I know that running away isn’t an answer, but at least in the short term it has removed a great source of anxiety for me. I want to start new and forget everything - I know it’s hard, but I want to do it right this time. This illness, obsession, whatever, is the most awful, crippling thing, it ruins everything. Before I left my old house, I had a few meetings with a therapist, who I unfortunately couldn’t carry on seeing due to me moving away. She related it back to my childhood, in which I was badly injured before going into care, I think I have some kind of trust and self-esteem issues due to that. I don’t yet have a name for this affliction, I will be going back into therapy as soon as I have health insurance here and I just want to fully understand what is going on so I can live my life.

Your comment above and the other four that you left this morning were flagged as spam by my software filters. I have decided to release them since they contain no links to the mentioned self help author. And from what I have read, for the most part she gets favorable reviews online. Other then the high cost of her material.

In my experience anxiety reducing programs, techniques etc. can be helpful in reducing the impact of OCD in our lives. Anxiety, is after all a symptom of OCD. It is, however, only part of the disorder. And in fact OCD may soon be reclassified as something other then an anxiety disorder in the DSM.

Anything that helps is a good thing though.