It sounds like you have been through hell and back. I admire your strength to go on. I wish there wasn’t such a stigma, with “mental disorders”. If you’re a diabetic, you take what is needed. If you have OCD you are lacking certain chemicals, and may have to take the proper medication, to get things back in gear.

I also suffer from OCD, and have been through hell and back. I’ve been hospitalized several times, for suicide. I am currently seeing a doctor, who perscribes me Paxil and Abilify. It has helped out with my rage, but the bizarre thoughts keep coming. I may go back to my behavioral therapist, because the thoughts are getting out of hand. They are causing problems in my relationships.

Well, I wish you the best. I’m glad you are taking good care of yourself. Remember, the mind can be lethal. God Bless!